FYI

Still here, hanging around haunting the place. Migrating links and stuff.
Boy, setting up a new page is a lot of work!

Ok then

The new site is here

There are some kinks like the colour of the "comments" button but it shows up when you hover over it.
Boulder already found it 'cause she's sneaky that way.
All my links will be on the about page.
I haven't migrated them all over yet. Anyone know how I can import html? I cannot figure it out, too tired I guess.

Tell me what you think......

The photo below

It's advertising for Bell Sympatico(Internet Provider) and I find it very offensive. In case you can't read it, the small print over one of the cut-outs says "ovary".

In how many ways does this offend? 

moving on up....

Typepad + Lala = Lala Land Redux

Coming soon to a monitor near you...I just have to fix a few little things.

Should I try to move all my posts over?

Do I know from Mucous!

Ed. Note - Christopher: Stop reading, you really don't want to know this stuff.

Erin was asking about my cycle so I thought I'd update.
The aftermath of the m/c ended around the 18th of November and AF was quick on it's heels, arriving on Nov. 30th.
AF arrived again Dec. 31 with a ferocity I have rarely seen.
Then she got back to a normal 27 day span, arriving again on Jan. 26th.
Now we wait.
I have not been charting/temping over the past few months due to disrupted sleep and lack of will.
I just don't want to be on the rollercoaster right now but I have this feeling......


And feelings aren't something I have much of anymore.
O! how I used to have feelings.
I used to get so horny, so very, very horny. It took me over for a couple of days at a time.
Not anymore.
I used to know my mucous and Oy! Do I know from mucous.
Not anymore.
My hormones are lost to me and I miss them terribly.
If you find them please send them home.

POAUS

Anybody ever used a used one? Gross, huh? It's too soon, I know but I'm dying to........and in the middle of the night(last night) a used one looked pretty tempting.

I am one sick mother....

This morning's big drama had me popping a tooth out of Jackson's mouth after he brushed his teeth and complained of bleeding. I've been itching to get this tooth out for months because it was mostly filling and had sharp edges.
I once had to pay $75 for a dentist to flick her wrist in his mouth and extract a tooth.
The most expensive 20 seconds of my life.
After that I vowed that, unless he was dying, I would do everything to get them out myself.
It's tough to be tough.
Especially since my kid is a wuss.
So there was grimacing and a fair bit of blood but we managed.
The sick bit is that I enjoy the challenge.
I told him I liked pulling the tooth and he told me I was a sick mother.

For Wandering Coyote

I love this photo found here .

How could I forget?

How could I forget to mention this? It's the latest promtional thingy from the mall where I sell pizza and pay five people's salaries with my rent.
Brought to you by these people.



Check out the prizes!

Why does he do this to himself? 

Day off! It's the new expletive

I thought that a day off from work meant that you didn't have to go to work, think about work or get called by work.
Not for me.
A day off from my work means get a call, go get groceries, deliver them, pick-up and move a freezer and then, when that is all over, rest for an hour and then go in to close.

Yep, I'm ENJOYING my day off.


on a positive note, I just won a game of solitaire.

Pottery Barn Dog

This thought occurred to me as I shook my booty around the dog park this morning.
Is it the Golden Retriever? What do you think?
I can't link to the explanation of "Pottery Barn" because I don't have time.
Vodka is my OSMWACD*(Obligatory Single Mom Wants Another Child Dog) and he eats Goldens for lunch. Aaarrrgh.

Listening to: The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert.


*Credit to Soper for naming the OMD(Obligatory Miscarriage Dog)

Should bloggers meet?

I'm thinking of doing an East Coast drive. Should I make cawfee tawk?

What happens if people don't meet expectations? What if I don't meet expectations?

Has anybody else taken these kind of relationships into real life and been successful?

We're headed to Halifax in March where I hope to meet Sandy, then I was thinking I may come down to Boston.
I'd be willing to drive a little out of the way if someone wanted to treat me to a grande toffee nut frappaccino blended creme.

Edited to add: Yes, I've got to get to T.O.
I promise I'm coming!

No, Seriously

Sure why not? I mean it's not like I'm not trying to lose weight so why not.


I lost five pounds in the past two weeks so I think I'll talk about that.
Fascinating, isn't it?

Thanks Jewelz

For the horror scope and the valentine from the bean. I miss her so much.

I'd like to come down soon but we're living day by day here.

I disagree

I'm taking sides.
Like it or not.
I don't think it's going to matter to a bunch of bloggers who don't know me from a hole in the wall anyway.

I think pregnancy is part of infertility.
I think this blog is a reflection of who I am.
If I get pregnant then lucky me, that's who I am. If I lose that pregnancy - same deal.
If I keep that pregnancy.....hey wow, that would be phenomenal.
WHY WOULD SOMEBODY NOT BE HAPPY FOR ME??

Is a live child not the goal of all infertiles?

Do I have to stop reading the blogs of people I like because they managed to grow and birth a child?
No.
Do I have to tailor my posts so that I can keep bloggers
who would not currently be pregnant happy?
NO.

I don't hear anyone saying that Tertia and Julie no longer belong in this "community" because they have live children. Is anyone passing Grrl by because she, her husband and her surrogate are expecting a boy?
No.

If you're going to call out women who are currently pregnant because they post something that hurts YOUR feelings on THEIR blog then at least have the courtesy to apply that to EVERYONE, no matter how high their profile. How fucking naive do you think we are to not see the double standard there?

I already have a child. Maybe that's why I'm not popular with other infertile bloggers. Maybe I should never have started reading those blogs because I don't qualify for membership in the club.
It's too late. I'm in on the fringes and I've made some friends and I'm pissed off that they are hurt right now.

I can tell you there are a few blogs I will not be reading anymore but I don't think those people will even care.

Are you depressed?

I stole this link from Soper at Uterine Wars. I'm sorry I stole.

Goldberg Depression Questionnaire


I scored a 39. What should I do?

Why we parent - Warning child related content ahead

Tonight Jackson got a "migraine".
It's in quotes because it's never been diagnosed as such.
It's moments like these, when my child really needs to be soothed, that I feel most like a mother.
Tonight he acted like a baby and when I closed my eyes I could almost pretend he was a toddler again.
Tonight he cried in pain; I fixed it and he was happy again.
Very few things in life are as rewarding.

I gave him advil. I put a cool washcloth on his forehead.
I gave him antacid in water to make the need to barf go away.
I gave him a bath to relax him and wash his hair.
I held the blowdryer and combed his curls.
He smiled and kissed me on the lips.
He went to sleep in his own bed.

Through the course of this he had asked if he could sleep with me, I said yes.
He asked what I was thinking as I stared off into space while he bathed, I said "a baby".
He smiled and said "You want another one, don't you?", I said yes.

Frozen Pizza Dough

Sucks Ass!!
You can buy better pizza in the freezer section at Loblaws. I think this, coupled with the January sales figures, spells the end of my business. And that means my house will have to go too. Boy, oh boy, jumping off a bridge is looking mighty good right now.

Update redux

Two single door fridges coming tomorrow a.m.
$1700 worth of frozen and dry goods still coming today 2 p.m.
Walk in fridge not working this a.m., people coming to fix this within the hour

Mikko: when you said a sawzall would fix it I thought you were talking about my UTI(urinary tract infection) ouch.

Another update - Colposcopy at Civic Hosp. yesterday no big C in sight. Good. Revisit this issue in six months.

Today the perfume I'm using to cover the stench of cooked pizza in my clothes is.......
wait for it...............
..................................Salvador Dali.
Sweet.





Big C=Cancer

Dream

I had a dream this a.m. that I was in a bar on a boat with many sets of stairs. Mick Jagger and Keith Richards were in this bar on this boat watching a band. After the band had finished it's set my mother, who was sitting beside me, asked Sir Mick if he would lick a shot off her back. He agreed. I was freaked out because you don't do shots off someone's back.
There were many sets of stairs to climb. Paul was there and I remember being half naked through the stair climbing part. That's all.

Tag lines

Watch for changing tag lines. While I could never get bored with Monty Python, I am looking for a little more fun.

Recent tag lines:
You're so vain, you probably think this blog is about you, don't you?

You can't expect to weild supreme executive power just 'cause some watery tart threw a sword at you.

Update

The two door freezer did not fit through our door this a.m. and was sent back to vendor.
Am operating with 4 cubic foot freezer and $1700 worth of food, mostly frozen, is coming tomorrow afternoon.

Personal note: Went to clinic here in the mall where the incredibly brilliant doc. gave me a THREE MONTH scrip for a UTI. Two months and 27 days longer than it needs to be.
Retard.
She also insisted that I COULD get pregnant in the next three days, that I actually have NO IDEA when I ovulate because the Catholic Church did a study and temperature means nothing. Yada yada yada.
So I asked her If she'd ever read TCOYF and she said no, she didn't read stuff like that.
Good, I think I should get MORE advice from this dumbf*ck.

February

We're working hard on some changes here in "hell". That's my new name for my business. Positive, eh?
Moving to frozen dough has necessitated a new freezer and other menu changes mean a new steam table. I think the total cost will be well over $4000 just so we can bow to the whim of Head Office. A head office that has not yet seen fit to send a representative to my store since they took over in June. Thanks guys! 90% of new business fail in the first year. Can't be from lack of franchisor support.

Today's motto: If you don't like my pizza.....Suckit!!