Are you there G-D?

Somebody got to the shelter 10 minutes before me and took home the little lady that was supposed to be mine. I was so looking forward to Christmas with her, taking her to the pit and giving her treats. I feel like I've been robbed and my heart is aching.
What is wrong with me?
Do I ask too much?
I just wanted to make a bigger family but g-d doesn't see fit to let me do that. Maybe if I went on welfare and moved into a trailer.........how mean is that?